Gods Provision
Gods provision is beyond understanding.
God provides. God loves us. It’s a Biblical promise. Boy we have been pushing that to the test more than ever and with it, of course God has shown up and provided. Although I don’t quite understand why Jesus loves us so much and is the One and Only that follows through with every one of His words and promises, it does not matter. God does not need to explain anything. He already explains so much through His living Word, Jesus and his Apostles. The Old Testament, The Hebrew Bible; wow how we learn so much that is so undeserving. Some things we just can’t question, just as a child with their parent. As a child, we are to do by our parent’s will without always having an explanation. The same goes for God. We are his children and He… the authority that we cannot question. It’s a thin line between the wrestles in our hearts and pure obedience.
The unconditional kind of love. I have it for my husband, my children and my family. They are not perfect but its deep and absolutely unconditional. The same goes for God if we are His children. Why so hard to grasp? Why so hard to accept? The mystery in our guilt and shame. The metaphors in the cycles of life. Its mindful, its deep, its love… “three flames” kind of love.
Because of God’s undeserving love, my family has been more than provided for. We have gone from next to no funds, no legal place to park to a permanent resting spot and what feels like overflowing funds. Praise Jesus, right?!!! It all happened in one day’s time. It felt miraculous…divine and created throbbing explosive hearts.
Last week we were driving away from one of our friend’s house that we were parking in front of a few times a week, and everything changed. We no longer were able to park in front of the houses that we were week after week. We had asked a couple churches if we could stay in their parking lots but of course there are legalities that inhibit us from doing so. We had 5 dollars to our name; half of it was in quarters! Milk and bananas were all we needed. We thank the Lord we had a full refrigerator of food. We had been in deep prayer for days for God to provide. We had some bills due and needed gas. The main reason we were in this situation was because we gave our all to our new home on wheels, we had to fix some things up and keep food in our bellies. Keeping Josh away from Bartending has been a huge test of faith to say the very least. Deciding to change careers in the middle of this economy without a degree but rather 15 years restaurant experience has been far from easy. The job that we do have pays once a month as opposed to twice and Josh was forced to quit his airport job due to lack of transportation. That’s a long story but the job is no longer. So one income that pays once a month seemed far away considering our shallow pockets.
We had moments of desperation to the point that Josh and I went and applied to over a dozen restaurant jobs which we new God did not want us to have any part of. Not that serving in a restaurant or managing is a bad thing; it is just not for us in this season of life. God confirmed that in both of our hearts separately and after the whirlwind of applications we knew God would have to provide another way. We again had another desperate moment where we asked our friend who Josh does some graphic design/sales business with to give us an advance in pay. It completely went against our desire to trust God. We became fearful and we knew it was not the right thing to do if we wanted God to show up. Thank Jesus that our friend was on the same heart beat as us with his ability to discern what was the right thing. His strength and discernment brought the same out in us. We drove away from our friend’s house into the unknown with complete joy in our hearts knowing God was going to show up!
Once we got our hearts lined up with faith, there Jesus was with the road all paved out for us. It took one phone call to a friend who had many years experience with RVs that revealed our path. Not only did this fiery man help us understand all the mechanics of Grace (our RV) that much more, he also happened to have a mother who needed some yard work done. Josh jumped on that so fast and we figured it would be some extra gas money. Turns out it is a 3week project that involves a big chunk of change! We paid our bills, filled our tank along with our refrigerator once again! Josh loves the dirty hands on kind of jobs so he was feeling blessed.
This is far from the whole story. The fiery RV friend goes to a church in Simi Valley and after talking with Josh’s Dad he confirmed that we should call his Pastor to see if we could park in his church. Its secluded and beautiful so they thought it would be perfect for us. We got the pastors phone number and Josh set up a meeting. Last Wednesday night we all met with hopes that we would have a place to park and plug in. We prayed and let it rest in Jesus’ hands.
The meeting ended with power. It was amazing. Pastor Rick and his wife Joye lived in an RV for six years when they first bought their church, The Live Ride. God eventually provided them with a home about 20 feet from their church. While working on their home, they stayed in their RV on the side of their house. They had the whole thing set up for an RV. Access to plug in, dump, water, and Internet access. It’s all here! Through prayer they felt like God wanted us there and we now live on the side of their house where their RV once was. We have more than we ever thought possible. We experienced their church for the first time Sunday and what a special place it is. The Pastor was a former drug addict and so is much of his congregation. The Spirit is powerful in that place.
With that being said, this community is heavy. You can feel the warfare and we mentioned it to Pastor Rick and in his response, he did not skip a beat. He confirmed the heaviness and we know that we must put our armor on everyday. He has seen and experienced crazy things in this community. Josh and I knew this was a blessing but it was also a challenge. A challenge we are so willing to embrace. We are so thankful and once again in awe by how Jesus takes care of us. We have plans to bless this church. We want to give back.
Journeying on the narrow path I found myself a job. Or it found me. Josh’s sister Jenysia’s best friend just had a baby. A little boy. She is going back to work in 3 weeks and needs a nanny 4 times a week. My first reaction was no way. I just didn’t think I could handle it mentally and emotionally. I was looking for work outside of children. I wanted some interaction away from baby talk. As Josh and I were praying that night, not at all about that job opportunity, I felt like God revealed to me that I needed to take that job. It got to the point that I couldn’t not do it. It was so strong. In my heart, I was like man! Really God? Ok fine, Ill do it (dragging my feet of course). I know crazy on my end, as if I had so many other choices. Amusing how we can get like that!
God took me down the path of visuals that showed me what a blessing this opportunity is. A house to spend time in with a bath, a place to do laundry and a pool in the backyard where Josh and I can teach our kids how to swim. On top of all that,
this child is going to receive so much prayer and love that I know will comfort the mom. It’s where I need to be. No doubt. So with that job and working on photography and web stuff for our friend Mike who works with the non-profit Life Without Limbs (Check out the website, amazing!)… We are filled with that Living kind of Water that Jesus talks about. It streams with Joy, with experience, a deeper faith, fulfillment and a sound mind. Faith expressing itself through love. What else is there?
God provides. God loves us. It’s a Biblical promise. Boy we have been pushing that to the test more than ever and with it, of course God has shown up and provided. Although I don’t quite understand why Jesus loves us so much and is the One and Only that follows through with every one of His words and promises, it does not matter. God does not need to explain anything. He already explains so much through His living Word, Jesus and his Apostles. The Old Testament, The Hebrew Bible; wow how we learn so much that is so undeserving. Some things we just can’t question, just as a child with their parent. As a child, we are to do by our parent’s will without always having an explanation. The same goes for God. We are his children and He… the authority that we cannot question. It’s a thin line between the wrestles in our hearts and pure obedience.
The unconditional kind of love. I have it for my husband, my children and my family. They are not perfect but its deep and absolutely unconditional. The same goes for God if we are His children. Why so hard to grasp? Why so hard to accept? The mystery in our guilt and shame. The metaphors in the cycles of life. Its mindful, its deep, its love… “three flames” kind of love.
Because of God’s undeserving love, my family has been more than provided for. We have gone from next to no funds, no legal place to park to a permanent resting spot and what feels like overflowing funds. Praise Jesus, right?!!! It all happened in one day’s time. It felt miraculous…divine and created throbbing explosive hearts.
Last week we were driving away from one of our friend’s house that we were parking in front of a few times a week, and everything changed. We no longer were able to park in front of the houses that we were week after week. We had asked a couple churches if we could stay in their parking lots but of course there are legalities that inhibit us from doing so. We had 5 dollars to our name; half of it was in quarters! Milk and bananas were all we needed. We thank the Lord we had a full refrigerator of food. We had been in deep prayer for days for God to provide. We had some bills due and needed gas. The main reason we were in this situation was because we gave our all to our new home on wheels, we had to fix some things up and keep food in our bellies. Keeping Josh away from Bartending has been a huge test of faith to say the very least. Deciding to change careers in the middle of this economy without a degree but rather 15 years restaurant experience has been far from easy. The job that we do have pays once a month as opposed to twice and Josh was forced to quit his airport job due to lack of transportation. That’s a long story but the job is no longer. So one income that pays once a month seemed far away considering our shallow pockets.
We had moments of desperation to the point that Josh and I went and applied to over a dozen restaurant jobs which we new God did not want us to have any part of. Not that serving in a restaurant or managing is a bad thing; it is just not for us in this season of life. God confirmed that in both of our hearts separately and after the whirlwind of applications we knew God would have to provide another way. We again had another desperate moment where we asked our friend who Josh does some graphic design/sales business with to give us an advance in pay. It completely went against our desire to trust God. We became fearful and we knew it was not the right thing to do if we wanted God to show up. Thank Jesus that our friend was on the same heart beat as us with his ability to discern what was the right thing. His strength and discernment brought the same out in us. We drove away from our friend’s house into the unknown with complete joy in our hearts knowing God was going to show up!
Once we got our hearts lined up with faith, there Jesus was with the road all paved out for us. It took one phone call to a friend who had many years experience with RVs that revealed our path. Not only did this fiery man help us understand all the mechanics of Grace (our RV) that much more, he also happened to have a mother who needed some yard work done. Josh jumped on that so fast and we figured it would be some extra gas money. Turns out it is a 3week project that involves a big chunk of change! We paid our bills, filled our tank along with our refrigerator once again! Josh loves the dirty hands on kind of jobs so he was feeling blessed.
This is far from the whole story. The fiery RV friend goes to a church in Simi Valley and after talking with Josh’s Dad he confirmed that we should call his Pastor to see if we could park in his church. Its secluded and beautiful so they thought it would be perfect for us. We got the pastors phone number and Josh set up a meeting. Last Wednesday night we all met with hopes that we would have a place to park and plug in. We prayed and let it rest in Jesus’ hands.
The meeting ended with power. It was amazing. Pastor Rick and his wife Joye lived in an RV for six years when they first bought their church, The Live Ride. God eventually provided them with a home about 20 feet from their church. While working on their home, they stayed in their RV on the side of their house. They had the whole thing set up for an RV. Access to plug in, dump, water, and Internet access. It’s all here! Through prayer they felt like God wanted us there and we now live on the side of their house where their RV once was. We have more than we ever thought possible. We experienced their church for the first time Sunday and what a special place it is. The Pastor was a former drug addict and so is much of his congregation. The Spirit is powerful in that place.
With that being said, this community is heavy. You can feel the warfare and we mentioned it to Pastor Rick and in his response, he did not skip a beat. He confirmed the heaviness and we know that we must put our armor on everyday. He has seen and experienced crazy things in this community. Josh and I knew this was a blessing but it was also a challenge. A challenge we are so willing to embrace. We are so thankful and once again in awe by how Jesus takes care of us. We have plans to bless this church. We want to give back.
Journeying on the narrow path I found myself a job. Or it found me. Josh’s sister Jenysia’s best friend just had a baby. A little boy. She is going back to work in 3 weeks and needs a nanny 4 times a week. My first reaction was no way. I just didn’t think I could handle it mentally and emotionally. I was looking for work outside of children. I wanted some interaction away from baby talk. As Josh and I were praying that night, not at all about that job opportunity, I felt like God revealed to me that I needed to take that job. It got to the point that I couldn’t not do it. It was so strong. In my heart, I was like man! Really God? Ok fine, Ill do it (dragging my feet of course). I know crazy on my end, as if I had so many other choices. Amusing how we can get like that!
God took me down the path of visuals that showed me what a blessing this opportunity is. A house to spend time in with a bath, a place to do laundry and a pool in the backyard where Josh and I can teach our kids how to swim. On top of all that,
this child is going to receive so much prayer and love that I know will comfort the mom. It’s where I need to be. No doubt. So with that job and working on photography and web stuff for our friend Mike who works with the non-profit Life Without Limbs (Check out the website, amazing!)… We are filled with that Living kind of Water that Jesus talks about. It streams with Joy, with experience, a deeper faith, fulfillment and a sound mind. Faith expressing itself through love. What else is there?
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